So November has officially begun, and while tons of people are super thrilled to be moving into the holiday season, I can’t help but feel like a complete psycho path.
By this, I mean I’ve been having “a week” for about 3 weeks. In my last post I wrote about celebrating every tiny victory, finding success in every little thing you do EVEN if you feel like you’re doing absolutely nothing. And well, I’m trying, but I’m also losing my mind.
November, to me, means that the fall semester is almost a month away from being over. It means that I have to stress about the stress that I don’t have yet, but I will inevitably have in about 3 weeks. It means that it’s almost time for finals, and you haven’t even studied. It means it’s almost time for Christmas shopping, but all you can afford is a candle. It means that WINTER IS COMING, and you haven’t even prepared for cold weather yet and still are wearing sandals. Yeah, stress can do that to you and it’s currently doing that to me.
An it kind of effects me in the really ugly ways, in that I tend to eat everything in sight, break out in weird places like behind my ear or on my neck (???), I lose sleep, and cry over things that don’t make sense. Now try to understand, I am 100% the type of person who can hold it together during a major life crisis, but also have an emotional breakdown when I lose my favorite pen. The other day, I spent an hour looking for a shirt that I had accidentally put away under my bathroom sink instead of my closet. I’M STRESSED. And I’m not gonna lie, I CANNOT EVEN DEAL.
So today I kind of had to accept that I’m a mess. Ironically, International Stress Awareness Day was November 1st. This cannot be a coincidence right? I think this is really important. I always stress how important it is to put time into yourself and your mental health. This is a friendly reminder that it’s OKAY to be drowning in life, but it’s also time for you to take a step back and try to relax. I think I need someone to remind me of this more often.
If anyone else is struggling with similar November stress symptoms like me, please know you aren’t alone. This post is just a friendly reminder that everyone goes through this sometimes! And prayer helps! The name of my blog is the perfect reminder for times like this– “She is clothed with strength and dignity. She can laugh without fear of the future.” Proverbs 31:25. You’re doing great. I hope you feel beautiful, I hope you feel strong. I hope you don’t have a pimple the size of Jupiter on your chin like me. And if you do, we’re in this together. Now, let’s get through November!